Not so much. 184.6 this morning. Still going slowly down! I can't remember what I ended the Eve to Easter challenge at, but I think it was 198 or something just under 200.
My mother was staying with me for the last 10 days and I did OK, (not great) while she was here. She's very supportive, so the only reason I ate more than I wanted to was because her foods were in the house and I don't have very much self control. I did successfully throw away some mac and cheese and some icing that I knew would end up in my belly. I'd rather waste a few bucks on food than re-lose this weight.
In a small way it is nice to get back to my routine. My social life is taking off and my lack of self control is a little scary - last night a group of us were eating dinner that someone made and it was good! I caught myself eating 3 (three!) pieces of spice bread. I'm so familiar with longingly looking at bread and the looks at other people, "is anyone going to eat the last few pieces?" I was the only one that ate 3 pieces of bread, but then I was the only fat girl at the table. Or rather former fat girl.
The whole FWB thing with Dude isn't really working for me. He still gets too much real estate in my head and my life isn't better for having him in it. But I'm still a little attached and not ready to cut the string. I'm focusing on strengthening my relationships with other friends and hoping that soon my head will be so full of good times with friends that Dude will get pushed out. I.e, I'll stop caring one way or the other what Dude is doing. It's definitely taking longer to get to the point of not caring than if I had just cut it off cleanly a month ago.
A few people have said that I look like I don't need to lose more weight - but I'm afraid to let myself eat more. I'm doing really well for the first half of the day, and most days of the week I'm doing OK at dinner. But 2-3-4 evenings a week are something social and all bets are off. My only saving grace is that I ate well earlier in the day. I could probably maintain eating this way forever... It is working for me. I'm running about 3x a week and have increased my distance to 2 miles without walking, and using about 450 calories per workout, 4 miles total. I want to get to be able to run 3 miles without stopping - but I really want to become more athletic, like playing on a soccer team or a field hockey team. That way exercise is just part of my life instead of something special. Plus - I get out and meet people, like maybe a future Mr Right!
Peace out, y'all!
You have been doing so great! Contracts to your 92 lost so far and that social life that's picking up:-) Finding a way to maintain it that works for you and allows you that social time is what will make you happier in the long run so kudos to you for trying to make it all work out and being concerned rather than just letting one or the other go! It's hard to keep that eating in control when you're out and about having fun but it can be done so here's to hoping you find that balance:-)
ReplyDeleteI just came in to check on my previous challenge buddy, and it's great to see you're still under 190. It's not easy to keep it off, so staying under 200 is GREAT...seriously. :D
ReplyDeleteI agree with some of the other commenters. With your height and build, you look really good in the current weight... not everyone carries as well!
Here's to finding Mr. right. :D