181.6 this morning, up 3 pounds since Sunday.
It's gotta be water weight, 'cause I didn't eat 10,000 extra calories this week. I've been kicking ass on the water, though. I slipped on Tuesday at a birthday dinner for a friend. I had decided in advance that I was going to have the raw ahi tuna appetizer for my dinner, but I forgot that it came with noodles with ginger sauce. Crap. I wasn't strong enough to just say No. The only good thing I can say about that is at least it was appetizer-sized, not dinner-sized.
Next time I need to pick what I'm going to order ahead of time, before I leave my house. They have an ahi tuna entree and I can ask for extra veggies in place of the starch side.
I also think my Lyme disease is making a showing again. I've been unusually tired since last weekend and my knees hurt. For example, a few weeks ago I was full of energy, but this week it's tough to stand up when I'm sitting, without using something else to help me get up. I feel like I'm fat again!
I'm signed up to run a 5K on September 22, so on Monday morning I tried to run 5K (3.2 miles) without stopping. I made it! Then I walked 3.2 miles back to my car. That 6.4 mile workout burned 600+ calories! But it kicked my ass. Then on Tuesday I pushed myself with a weight workout and was sore for 2 days afterward.
So today I tried to run for 3 miles again (1.5 miles each way), and could barely do it. Actually, I had to walk several times. My average pace was 14 minutes/mile - which is glacial. But I did it. Last week it was easy and today it was SO hard. But I did it. Tomorrow morning, I think I'm going to do an old-style step routine or something else on DVD, and Sunday morning I'm going to try and run again.
It's times like these when I can't think too much. I have to just put one foot in front of the other and do the right things day in and day out. I have to stick with the plan and not think about it. I have to exercise most days of the week and not think about it. Don't think about it. Just do it. The reward is knowing that I'm more stubborn than this stupid water weight. I'm going to win. Period.
You are absolutely going to win. You got this.
ReplyDeleteSome days your body just needs to slow down a little. You'll get back to that full 5K again. You're absolutely right in not over-thinking it. I find that my mind plays a lot of tricks on me (filling me with self-doubt and worry), but I gotta push it aside. Not always easy, but definitely possible.
ReplyDeleteYou ARE going to win! :)