Friday

It's better.  Boiler fixed.  I have heat and hot water again.  Thanks for the nice comments.  When I'm rushing around, I feel like I'm the only person on earth who has problems and I'm all, "woe is me, woe is me,"  and spiral farther and farther into how bad things are.

In a mood yesterday morning, I stomped over the the cafeteria looking for trouble.  Definitely a Diet Coke, but I'd see what else was interesting.  I ended up getting a small cherry chocolate chip scone and eating it.  Wasn't worth the 150 calories.  My tastes have changed, although I never did love scones.  One of my first posts ever on this blog talked about how the cafeteria is a slippery slope for me.  Still is.  Back then, my technique for avoiding that place was to buy DC at the grocery store.  Now my technique is to not drink Diet Coke every day.

Couldn't work out at lunch because I had to be home for the boiler repairman.  Couldn't work out after work because I had a meeting until 5 and had to be in Albany for meditation class at 6.  It really bothered me that I had planned to work out and wasn't going to be able to.  I felt like I was at the top of another slippery slope, leading uncontrollably back to sloth and overweight.

Meditation class calmed me down and got me back to seeing some good in the world.  On the way back home I drove by the firehouse and saw an empty parking lot.  I'd been thinking about this.  If the parking lot's empty, stop and do the treadmill.  So, I did.  It turns out there was someone there (he'd parked on the other side), so I chatted with him for a few minutes, changed out of my work clothes into running clothes, then went into the workout room and shut the door and did C25K W5D1.  I got home at 9:30.

Old me would have been too intimidated by another person in the building and I would have turned around and left without working out.  Old me would have skipped the Thursday workout altogether, been full of regret and started the old, "I'll work out tomorrow" spiel that doesn't lead anywhere.

Plus, the first 5-minute run actually felt good!  It went downhill and the last 5-minute run was a complete challenge to finish. (9pm is really too late for me.  I'd only had 1000 calories up to then and didn't have any oomph left in my tank.).  But I finished it anyway!  Went home and had some cottage cheese and a nice hunk of aged Gouda cheese for a total of 1340 calories yesterday.

I won't say yesterday was a good day.  But it was an OK day.  If I can put together a really long string of days like yesterday, (and I have put together 5-1/2 months worth of days like that).  If I keep doing that, eating well and moving enough, I'll succeed.  No matter what else is going on in my life or how many things break.