So I'm 201.2 this morning.
I've had a metallic taste in my mouth for the last week. It's annoying because Diet Coke and my tea taste like crap. My working hypothesis is that the metallic taste is because I've been in ketosis. I've had less than 100 gm of carbs about 6/7 days for the last several weeks. So yesterday I had a brownie with fudge frosting to knock myself out of ketosis (and get my calories up to ~1350). The brownie was YUMMY and was 60 of the 84 gm of carbs I had yesterday.
It worked too well. No metallic taste today, but one extra pound of water on the hips. Sigh. Guess I'll extend the Onederland anticipation a few more days.
I'm wearing some form fitting Liz Claiborne pants that are size 16. This morning I tried on some Levis that I can't wait to fit into - size 12 relaxed fit. They're only a little tighter than what I've got on. It's funny how there's such a range of sizes for the same body. It reminded me of a goal - wear size 12 pants consistently.
I'm also reminded that I need to look up my goals and rewards from when I started the CDCC in September. I think I said I'd get another tattoo when I hit 200 pounds! Here's my first tattoo.
I got this tattoo on my finger right after I got divorced 14 years ago. It represented my promise to myself to be more careful if I ever consider getting married again, something I badly wanted and still want. Over the years I dated a bunch of wrong dudes and I'd look at my finger and know that I'd never consider marrying them. The tattoo is sort of a barrier to another ring going onto my ring finger.
I'm seriously considering getting it lightened or partially/mostly removed. Now that I'm learning how to take care of myself emotionally all the time, I don't feel the need to remind myself or advertise something that came from a negative place.
For a new tattoo, I'm thinking about something about honoring my body (yeah, ink to honor my body. I get how odd that is). I'm thinking words, and I'm thinking on the part of my body I like the most. My belly, on the front-side. The words that come to mind are, "Treat Me Right." The only problem is that the words come from a Pat Benetar song where she's trying to get a guy to stop treating her wrong. So, um, not exactly coming from a positive place.
I'll keep pondering what my new tat should be. Looks like I'll have more time to consider it before I can give myself the gift.
Good luck with deciding on what tattoo you want. I have been considering it for years. I can't ever seem to really make up my mind about what I want though. I'm still thinking about it. I want something original and small. Dail is not thrilled with the idea so I'm also waiting to soften him up about it. Maybe for my birthday later in the year I will know what I want.
ReplyDeleteI love it! My friend got this amazing thigh paisley tattoo that I LOVE but would never have the balls to do. Paisley and right on the widest part of her body as an act of embracing her curves (she's a whopping 160 - rolls eyes). But it's a BEAUTFIUL tattoo. :) Keep us posted. I've considered it once I've hit goal weight... but it's another one of those things that will wait. I don't need to concern myself with it.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad you're working through your emotions and processing how important it is to make healthy decisions. You rock my world lady! (p.s. I still kinda like the ring finger tattoo).
i love tats!! Your ring tat there may have come from a bad place but you can turn that around and make it positive you know rather than remove or lighten it... unless of course you want to get rid of it but just saying. There is good that comes from all things if you look at the past with an open mind and you could find something good to attach to that tat from now on when you look at it. Maybe like how it made you see how much you are really worth and that you are a beautiful, strong and independent woman:-)
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