Friday

Gained 2 pounds overnight, up to 203.2.  Gotta be TOM since I didn't eat 7000 extra calories.  I also think it's TOM because I've got the TOM mood.

For one day prior to TOM, everything stinks.  Everything seems bad.  I interpret everything in the worst possible light and it seems like there's nothing to look forward to and everything is crappy.  I won't go into the details because I'm pretty sure everything is in reality, fine.

Today being the Friday before St. Patrick's Day, the office is emptying out fast.  I'm gonna take off after my 1:30 meeting and head to the Salvation Army for a little retail therapy.  Then I'm gonna come back to the gym at work and work my buns off for a long Friday afternoon workout. Then a stop at the grocery store and home.  We miscommunicated the last 2 weeks and I rushed the workout and skipped errands to spend time with Dude.  This week I tried to set expectations that we may not see each other tonight at all, cause I wanted to workout and stuff.  Now I can take my time and enjoy doing good things for myself.

I don't really want to go, but we may end up seeing the St Patrick's Day parade in my city.  Dude's never experienced an American St Paddy's Day, so I feel like I should show him the drunken debauchery and awfullness that happens around here. Or at least the parade.  Around here, the day starts with breakfast at a bar, then the rounds of certain places and then the parade at 2 in the afternoon.  I haven't seen it here yet, but I've been in other cities and I can imagine what it will be like.  I'm not sure whether it will be good or bad to experience it all over again with the eyes of someone seeing it for the first time.

I'm hoping I can make it through today without being too negative or ruining anything good and that I feel better tomorrow.  Head down, one foot in front of the other.  Don't mess up, don't mess up.