Thursday Update

On Weds, I ate 1955 calories.  I was doing OK until I got home and had a beer sitting on the back porch.  I liked it so much that I had another one.  I wasn't really planning on having dinner, saving the crabcakes to have on salad for lunch today.  But we had a call that was a car into the Walmart building.  Got to the station and we were held there, so I got back home in about 20 minutes.  When I came back from the call, I warmed up the crabcakes and added broccoli with butter.

I would up the protein a little, which would hopefully eat into the carb or fat calories some. 

Even though 1955 calories is above my goal, it's below what FitDay says is my daily burn rate, so I still felt OK.  Then I got on the scale and am up 0.4 lbs from yesterday, to 262.2.  Not too worried about it.  I think my stress level has more impact on my daily weight than anything else, so I want to keep calories under control, but focus on managing tension. Which reminds me to check on that meditation class to see if there's a new class starting any time soon.

Meals yesterday:
3 eggs and 3 pieces of bacon cooked at home and brought into work, eaten at 8:30
handful of spicy almonds mid morning
mesclun salad with feta cheese, salmon and sunflower seeds for lunch
blackberry/pineapple/kiwi juice shake mid afternoon, recipe below
2 beers after work
3 crabcakes with mayo/horseradish
1.5 cups broccoli with butter

Juice recipe:
1/4 pineapple
1 cup blackberries
1 kiwi fruit
1 pear
1/4 cup coconut water
15-20 mint leaves

The juice was just OK.  It would probably have been better if I'd drunk it sooner after making it.  It tasted a little bland, whereas when I made it last week, it was really good.  It was extremely filling!  I drank it around 2 or 3 and still wasn't hungry at 7. (More of an argument to not have had as much dinner that I had.)

Mood:
I was feeling like I wanted to touch base with fire guys. After spending all weekend with them at the picnic Saturday and on standby Sunday, it felt weird to not see them at all.  Got to the station and Doug and chief were there.  I hung out for about an hour before going home.  Filled out the physical form and the building survey, and discussed some of my thoughts with them.  I don't know how that makes me feel, whether I feel more a part of the tribe, or more uncomfortable. I view myself as being essentially the same as them (except for being new and a woman), but I wonder if they view me as being mom-like.  Ugh. 

I'm still tense because the property manager hasn't rented the 3rd floor, and this is the 2nd month it's been empty and money is going to be tight. I'm angry because he acts like the building is in a bad area, and feeling tense because I'm not sure if I should replace him, or just wait until he rents it.  I certainly don't trust him any more, after the lies he told me about all the "work" he's done.  He recommended that I drop the rent to $550 which is $125 lower than it was - and it was rented when he got it!   It seems like he should be able to rent it at the higher rate, like the previous guy did.  $125 a month loss adds up to $1500 in a year.  Multiple months of income, lost.  If I replace him, I run the risk of having it be empty for even more months, and I can't afford that.  Feeling like I should just let this whole issue go and turn it over, because the only thing I'm accomplishing by worrying about it is getting myself worried.  Fully expecting the 2nd floor tenant to leave too, meaning that the entire house turned over in 3 months, losing 1-2 months income for each unit, which really hurts.

Exercise:
None. I went up and down the stairs at the office once, and thought about taking Maggie for a walk when I got home.  But then I didn't do that, and thought about stretching in front of the TV, which I also didn't do.  I vaguely thought I'd put it off until this morning, which is silly.  I've never successfully worked out in the morning.  Today, I'm definitely going to take Maggie for a walk and go up and down the stairs at work 3 times.  Starting now.