236, a loss of 1.8 pounds this week, and 40 pounds down from my all time high of 276.
I'm really happy with the loss because I did a lot of socializing this week and ate stuff that I probably shouldn'ta, like hummus, pepperoni and cheese slices, 2 tiny pieces of cake, a brownie, etc, etc. I was driving to a party Friday night thinking about the techniques of staying away from the food and keeping my hands full so I couldn't eat - and then it turned out that everyone was SITTING around the table with the food. Hm.
I tried to eat for taste rather than quantity, remembering that the first bite is always the best, and did semi-OK taking very, very small pieces of the bad stuff. After a few hours, it was getting easier and easier to eat, and I was getting tired, so I left rather than make dumb choices I'd regret later.
Then on Saturday we had an all day meditation retreat from 10-4. Every half-hour we'd change from sitting to walking meditation or vice-versa. We didn't talk AT ALL during that time. Wow - what an experience. There are 2 more weeks of the class, and I gotta say - if you have a chance to learn how to meditate or take a meditation class, take it! My stress level has gone waaay down over the last few weeks. Nothing in my life has changed, other than how I handle the stress.
For the retreat, we were supposed to bring food, so I brought deviled eggs. If I felt the temptation to overeat, I knew I could eat my eggs and fill up on complete protein. I don't want to be "On a diet" or "Off a diet," so this past week felt like good practice for the future when I'm maintaining. Eating everything I want to eat, just not very much of it.
Met with the therapist on Thursday and told her that one of the things I want to work on is not repeating my past pattern of losing weight, getting emotionally derailed by something and then using fettucini carbonara and Kraft macaroni and cheese to comfort myself.
I'm feeling hopeful that this time losing weight might turn out better than the other times, I'm learning non-food techniques to take care of myself and beginning to explore my patterns and history. I'm SO looking forward to being a normal weight again and being healthier at 50 than I was at 40. Or 30! All I gotta do is continue what I've been doing for the last 2-1/2 months. I'm more than 1/3 of the way to my ultimate goal of 169, but since I haven't been able to hit that in 20 years, I might possibly be happy with 185. And that is 50 pounds away, meaning I'm almost halfway there. Gosh, I love numbers!
You did awesome and I need to remember it's the first bite we taste. You are doing so great. Keep up the great work. I need to keep working on my meditation. For lent this year I started and was doing fair but for some reason I've quit, I really need to get back into it. Things were so much clearer when I took the time to be quiet.
ReplyDeleteTake care and have a blessed week.
It's great that you were able to sample and enjoy A BIT without going nuts. That is a strategy, and it does help.
ReplyDeleteIt's so exciting to be at (near) the halfway point. I remember when I was there (for me, it was the lost 70 pounds point, halfway). It felt suddenly like, "Damn,if I can do 70, I can do another 70!!!" It made it seem realer and more possible, ya know? And once you're in Onederland, it's unbelievable, the high of it. THE HIGH OF IT.
Here's to seeing you get there in good time, with good health, and feeling powerful!!!!
Great week's loss!!!! Good week's mindset. Onward!
Great loss even when faced with temptation.
ReplyDeleteGood idea to plan an eating strategy before you get there. And a nice loss for the week, too. 40 lbs, WOW! My life needs some meditation in it right now, and I've been thinking yoga, maybe.
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