CDCC Update

247 this morning, a 0.2 pound gain from last week's update.  During the week I got down to 245.6, then back up to 247, then down, then back up.

Exercise: no exercise Wednesday and it's feeling like I'll struggle today.  I'm planning to do some tree clearing on the hill in front of my house, but I really feel like taking a lazy Sunday instead.  Tuesday was 18 holes of golf.  Yesterday was ziplining (which turned out to be a ropes course with some fun zips).  The week had a lot of variety and a lot of movement.  Ideally, my life will have more weeks like this one - and that will be a challenge foodwise.

Reading: I'm using my meditation class for this.  I missed last week's class because of the golf tournament, but the instructor sent me the assignment.  Read a handout on the Seven Essential Attitudes, and spend 10 minutes each day sitting and contemplating one of them (can be a different one each day).  The attitudes are: nonjudging, patience, beginner's mind, trust, nonstriving, acceptance, and letting go.  For copyright reasons, I won't include the handout, but I've gotten a lot of peace out of the contemplations.

Food: was bad this week, and it was all from making not-good choices when I was out with people.  I know how to do it.  I know what to do.  But in the split seconds where I made the decisions, I wanted to be like everyone else.  Tuesday it was wings and beer after golf.  Friday it was 2 glasses of wine and some nachos with TaxMan and yesterday it was a 6-course tasting menu with wine accompaniment at a bachelorette party.

Social life:  great this week! Still not at a level of supportive relationships, but moving in that direction on multiple fronts. Finding myself surprisingly uncomfortable with the idea of dating TaxMan.  Not because he's a bad choice, but because (likely) of my being so entrenched in my alone-world and entranced with emotionally unavailable dudes that I'm uncomfortable when a guy is available and actually interested in getting to know me better.  I'm considering talking to a therapist about it.  I don't think I want to be alone the rest of my life, so I need to get my thoughts and actions into alignment.

General odds and ends:  I read a blog posting last week about thinner people moving more, and that stuck with me, especially yesterday, noticing the bride-to-be jumping around in her living room, overflowing with energy even after putting us all in the dust on the ropes course.  I noticed my bias towards not moving so much and thought about working on changing that.

The elliptical is being delivered on Tuesday!  With 6 weeks under my belt now, I think it's a machine I'll really use.

For closure on the plow blade story - I found out it's only 75 or so pounds, so I'll be able to move it myself in the back of my station wagon.  Problem solved!

I'll post a picture of the ropes course later, when I find the camera cable!

Have a great week, all!